Are you ready for 2019?
This is the time of year when everyone seems to make big plans to change themselves in hopes that by doing that one thing, everything in their universe will suddenly become like a fairy tale. Life will just be perfect if……. You can fill in the blank. I’m not going to bore you with a long lecture on the futility of resolutions, or throw out statistics on the numbers of people who really won’t loose weight, eat better, exercise more, drink less or stop smoking. Isn’t it interesting that most resolutions seem to deal with taking better care of ourselves, both physical and emotional?
No, instead of pontificating on those kinds of things, as is normal for me, I’m meandering down a very different path. My hope is that by following my little journey you will be inspired to find your path as well.
The definition of hope according to the Merriam-Webster’s Dictionary is:
- To cherish a desire with anticipation; to want something to happen
- To desire with expectation of obtainment or fulfillment
- To expect with confidence
One of the things you will learn about me is that I am a word geek. When I was a kid I loved reading the dictionary – yes, I was a closet weirdo. I also loved reading Word Power every month in my dad’s Reader’s Digest. More stories on that another time. Doodling for me was ALWAYS creatively writing words, monograms, and just ordinary penmanship practice by writing the alphabet. Poetry and inspiring quotations have also part of my world from a very young age.
I love typography, which explains my absolute obsession with fonts. Am I the only person who notices the beautiful titles and text in movie credits and analyzes how it connects to the theme of the film? Well, OK, maybe I am like one in a million, but I know I am not alone.
My doodling words and letters turned into real calligraphy when I was a young teenager. I taught myself how to letter and even earned money doing it at a couple of points in my life. As a young adult looking for her first entrepreneurial endeavor, I seriously considered learning to create logos and signs as a business (this was 1979 – way before the computer age.) Over the past twelve or so years I have created at least ten “businesses” all because I had a clever idea and could create an entire brand around that idea. I loved the creating, just not the actual running of the business.
But like many of my hopes and dreams, I did not see it through to the end. A fact I have spent many years beating myself up about. I hoped all these things would work out, but I never had a system around me to help ensure at least the possibility of success. And, as I now know, all of these experiences weren’t failures; they were preparation for today. Because, right here, right now, finally at sixty years of age, I feel as though all the pieces are coming together. That would not have been possible if I had not fallen down so many times. This time, when I got up again, I didn’t try to “create” a persona; I just allowed me to be me.
What about your life? What is that thing that you never did, that hope that you think you have outgrown like a pair of old sneakers? Is it still inside of you? Is there a tiny little ember faintly glowing inside your heart just waiting to be fanned into a flame? The good news is that as long as you are breathing it is not too late. Well, let’s clarify, there are somethings we will never do as we age. Certain physical tasks may be out of the question, so our dreams do need to be tempered by reality. I can’t grant miracles, but there are versions of every dream that could become a reality.
Tomorrow we will continue the conversation. I’ll share how hindsight allowed me to see that, despite not following through on somethings, the path I did take was authentic for me and how I have become who I am today. My hope – as I cherish a desire with anticipation – is for those of you who are feeling hopeless, lost, off track, lonely, or too old, that you will find a nugget of truth to hold onto as you journey into the new year.