My Word Of The Year

I have never participated in choosing a word to guide my year. I’m not sure where, how, or who began this trend. I’m not even sure how much of a trend it really is, but it is a thing. I love the stamped metal bracelets sporting an inspirational word. But what one word would I choose?

Inspired by an Instagram post I decided this would be the year. With little more than twenty four hours to make my decision, I prayed and went to sleep. When I woke up the first word on my mind is now the word that will guide much of my life in 2019.

Engage

In the year and a half since the closing of my business and coming home to recover and evaluate the next chapter of my life, I chose to withdraw from nearly all of society. I didn’t realize it fully at the time, but there was much about my soul that needed healing. Actually during the process I just thought I was being antisocial. My internal voice routinely criticized this behavior, further exacerbating the isolation.

At some point I just relaxed and did whatever felt natural. If I wanted folks in my life, I went out. If I needed solitude, I stayed home. No self condemnation.

Over the holidays something significant shifted. I found myself wanting, no, needing to do something with other people. I’m ready for the next phase of the healing process.

Thus, I will engage with the world around me.E83672D2-12DF-427F-964D-7867648851B9Engage with my family.

Engage with my neighbors.

Engage with my community.

Engage with those friends I have let go of and hope they understand.

I believe that my light had been so dimmed by years of stress and struggling for approval and success that I had no choice but to step back to refuel. I am so grateful for the time and opportunity to travel this path. And now I am ready. I step into 2019 full of anticipation and enthusiasm knowing that I as long as I am authentic and allow God’s light to shine through me, it’s going to be a great year.

img_0882-5

One thought on “My Word Of The Year

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s